“What leads to strife… You are jealous and covet what others have and your desires and your desires go unfulfilled so you become murderers…{James 4:1-4 AMP} A wise friend once said, ‘To be jealous is to see others have something you desire and wish that you were the one that had it in place of them. Envy is to resent them for having it.’ When there is no inner joy and ease that comes only from answered prayers leading to fulfilled desires, we could carry our battles over into the flesh and blood realm, turning into some sort of spiritual vampire. Paul warned the Galatian church; “but if you bite and devour one another, beware lest you be consumed by one another!” {Gal 5:15} Without receiving your own; {your own forgiveness and sanctification, your own endorsement and authorization from the father, your own path, purpose and destiny} your love-walk towards others will continue to be a struggle.

The other day, Mary and Martha were with Jesus. Mary was having this deep intimate conversation with the Lord and Martha was also serving the Lord. But because of her inner turmoil, Martha could not serve right. Notice Martha’s prayer. It was about Mary. It sounded something like this; “Lord, Mary is not getting it right. I am the one getting it right. You just let Mary get by with it. Tell her to help me. Tell her to get up from there Lord.” But you do not tell the Lord what to tell another handmaiden or manservant of His. You have to rest in Him and receive your own in closet prayers {intimacy with God} first. Then He may tell you what He wants to tell another, but not the other way round. Jesus never said; “Martha, it is wrong to have an excellent spirit to serve.” Instead he said to her; “You are worried and troubled about many things…” {Luke 10:38}

We are worried and troubled about many things because we are not receiving from the Spirit of God those things that are already and exclusively prepared for us. “…Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him. But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit…” {1 Corinth 2:9&10} I feel strongly that the Lord will have your heart reassured; “… for everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.” {Matthew 7:8} We do everything but ask. We work up ourselves, have sleepless nights, throw temper tantrums and complain to others but we never just settle down and pray through these issues. Just like Martha, we mistake our occasional flippant, fearful and impatient grumblings at the Lord for prayer. In this so called prayer, we neither come to know nor trust the Father.  Someone is saying, “But I have asked before.” Then receive. Mary sat at His feet, not just talking, but listening. That is how she came about that good portion which no man could take away from her {Luke 10:42}. Receive by the Spirit what is your own. Settle down, settle in and pay the price of waiting. Stop wasting your time eyeing another man’s censer. There will never come a time in the kingdom when the Bridegroom will command a wise virgin to give out her precious oil to a foolish one. {Matthew 25:1-13} As for now, the Lord is holding out the same offer to us all. Each of us can have as much as we have the capacity to receive. So go and borrow vessels – not a few. Then go in and shut your door upon yourself in your secret place. {2 kings 4:1-6} “…And your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly.” {Matthew 6:6}

Doubt will make us lose what is already given.The Father says concerning Himself; “If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!”  {Matthew 7:11}  Our heavenly Father knows, and He has given good things. Not stone, or serpent, or scorpion. These days, before we even get pregnant, we have shopped and the house is filled with the best we can afford for the coming babies. We have opened bank accounts for them as infants and we are laying up investments in their names, for their sakes. How much more our Heavenly Father? It’s not about what you can do right or wrong. No matter your stage of growth and maturity, Daddy is not accusing you of anything. Daddy loves you more than anything and He has already laid up the best for you. So cease from striving. It is the same old dirty trick the enemy plays on our mind. God said; “Let us make man in our own image and likeness.” The likeness of God was already given to Adam and Eve. But the serpent laid hold of Eve’s mind one day and convinced her that God did not really want her to be like Him{Genesis 3:1 – 5}. She was already like God! Do you see how it is that a double-minded man is unstable in ALL his ways? {James 1:5&6} Doubt will drive you deeper and deeper into the mess. But faith in the revealed word will bring you out and establish your feet on the solid rock. You are not alone. Do not look at Mary and say; “Lord, you do not care…” {Luke 10:40} The Lord will have me tell you; “I love you. You are safe in my arms. The thoughts I have towards you are thoughts of peace and not of evil. Therefore Arise, and put on the mind of Christ and enter into the thoughts of God. I have something to tell you.”

We have listened to the enemy too long. Now God has something to tell us. As we go into our closet and close the doors behind us, our heavenly father will clothe us with grace, and with the mind of Christ. It will come to pass that as we hear His voice and press into knowing Him, He reveals His face and He touches us. Our anger and resentment problems will cease. No more strife and quarrelling, no more cold wars. We would have contentment, because peace comes from the presence of God. When you know that your prayers are being answered, you will have peace. This Month, re-enact the covenant of His peace in your life by praying about every little detail, everything. Do not hold anything back. Pray about your ministry, your relationships, your qualms and your idiosyncrasies. Pray for your children, and your journeys and your business and your health. Ask, Receive and Rest; “For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.”